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Thursday, November 27th, 2008
10:38 am
All I want Is i i i dig a..
I dig a pony
Well you can celebrate anything you want
Well you can celebrate anything you want
I do a road hog
Well you can penetrate any place you go
Yes you can penetrate any place you go
I told you so, all I want is you.
Ev'rything has got to be just like you want it to

I pick a moon dog
Well you can radiate ev'rything you are
Yes you can radiate ev'rything you are--

I roll a stoney
Well you can imitate ev'ryone you know
Yes you can imitate ev'ryone you know
I told you so, all I want is you.
Ev'rything has got to be just like you want it to

I feel the wind blow
Well you can indicate anything you see
Yes you can indicate anything you see--

I dug a lorry
Well you can syndicate any boat you row
Yes you can syndicate any boat you row
I told you so, all I want is you.
Ev'rything has got to be just like you want it to

-john paul george and ringo-

Current Mood: sick
Sunday, October 12th, 2008
10:03 pm
been so long
Its been such a long time.reading threw all these journals that i wrote and nothing has changed other than a few faces and names..
sad that the same old habits lead to new things but with the same outcome and problems.
I need to learn to be myself.I need to learn to love myself and love everbody for who they are.What will become of me in the future im not sure.But I see good things and good people.Im going to keep posting in this journal for myself.Its good to have a reminder of the past the present to make a better future.I hope all find themselves well
God bless


Current Mood: peaceful
Friday, May 23rd, 2008
6:14 pm
always just a nigger
so my friend tells me today that he finally figured out why his mom has been such a sharp nail in his side lately.Its because he has a black friend she says and it looks bad on the community.So we just have to make sure to hang out after work late nights...
I tried so hard not to be offended but how could I not?
I was just judged by the standers and apperance of a community that I try relentlessly not to associate with.
I dont like big rims rap music sagging pants ebonics slang living in the ghetto...
and still no matter how much I fight in the end what does it matter just a dumb colored boy.
I try not to hate the american black community but its not fair that just go run a muchus and I get the back lash.I try to loove everyone.Im the first to tell you whatever makes u happy do it as long as it doesnt hurt others but I get that backfired on me eh? heh yea fuck it
I dont mean to rant and rave but wow this stab comes at a bad time.
I havnt reccouperated from my band mates ditching me and gas being high business being slow and its one more thing to hurt me...
Im sorry to those that read this.This is mostly unlike me but I had to vent somewhere so that I wouldnt burst in to tears on my way home..
Anyways I hope you find yourself well

Current Mood: rejected
Thursday, March 6th, 2008
12:49 am
for noone
my heart is heavy with sorrow for I have lost the interperson I once knew.
Gone are the days of happienss and sorrow gone are the days of pride and joy.
The rain falls alot in my heart like in the north most regions of the world.
why must I suffer? Why my spirit be broken time and time again?
Will I find who I once who so I can be once and for all the same.
the dissapointments build.
Goodnight to all the starts in the sky
Goodnight to the dreams of weap and sigh
Good to all my dreams come true for tomorrow I dream this reality come true

Current Mood: depressed
Saturday, March 1st, 2008
11:45 pm
Begin the begining
Today starts the Reclusion....
today a door will be shut that might never open again.
and much of the world lost the opportunity to know somone great

Current Mood: angry
Thursday, January 24th, 2008
12:14 pm
The Maude
hey this is to anyone who likes good things..
check out this band
they are called Maude pronouced (mod)
anyways tell me what you think


Current Mood: & tired
Tuesday, January 22nd, 2008
10:25 pm
I got this feeling..
i'm soo tired to talking to people.
I have nothing common with most people.
come to think of it its the furs I have an issue with...hmmm I'm going to have to fix that.
okay so no more furs..cool

on a side not life is hard but great god is awsome and good luck to everyone

Current Mood: bitches
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
1:10 am
I've decided for 2008 on I am going to make this my year.
No more taking BULlshit from people being walked on and treated bad
NO more being to shy or nice to get what I want out of life when people take it right out of my hand
No more mister nice guy.
I am one of the most incredible influencial people you will ever meet if ur smart enough to catch on.
And im not going to be ashamed anymore of being better and stronger.
I love everyone BUt our love will have to be conditional.
There is only one unconditional love for me and thats where my focus is going to

So long to the pains and sorrows of 2007 and hello the rest of my life..
HAppy new year to all
see you from the top!

Omar Lisandro

Current Mood: excited
Saturday, November 17th, 2007
1:33 pm
Its you build it......They will come...
hey check this out.It is important to me.
let me know what ya think.
much love

Lisandro M


Current Mood: excited
Friday, October 12th, 2007
1:18 pm
Movin On
Its been a long journey this year but all is well so far.
I have gone back to my former self so to speak.I retaught myself to be self sufficent as far as friends and company.I nolonger really have any desire to hang out with anyone.
Im not saying this to be an asswhole but everyone is always "busy" and thats cool but when im actually busy then people get mad because they never see me.No more of me calling to hang out.I am proud of myself in my recent accomplishments.
I finished writting 6 previously written songs and have written about 12 on my own plus I wrote my first song in spanish today called En Esta Vida (the latin pray)
Life has been hard alone but i am coming threw it.No by no means am I outta the storm im in but I treading ahead nicely at a smooth pace.God has been as he always has for me
here unlike soo many others.Life for me is going to be great no matter the good or bad that may come.Too bad alot of people arent going to be apart of my success but
"c'est la vide".anyways I hope to the one or two if that people that might read this find themselves well and in good company.


Current Mood: peaceful
Saturday, September 8th, 2007
4:06 am
Why don't you all love me???

Current Mood: disappointed
Sunday, August 19th, 2007
11:55 pm
Is That The Way The World Goes Round..
Well...I must say this is the end to fantastic Weekend.I got to hung out with a few new people and had such a great time..its just what I needed honestly.
Isn't it funny that when you do good things for yourself that everything comes into perspective.I realized why that when I hung out with certain people
I just didn't feel right.I'm not saying they do it intentionally or atleast so I hope but it happends non the less.
For the first time in a while I hung out with people that didn't let me or make me feel out of place because I'm gay and not a Twink.That's been a hard struggle for me.
I have always been one to love myself but Constant rejection because not being what "most"gay men want Gay skinny white is hard.For the most part I try not to let it get me down but at the same time sometimes It makes me sad that it almost seems im being punished for what I look like.I'm proud of being 6'3 317lbs.Not all fat I work out played sports and feel great.But even if i loss every once of fat on my body I would still weigh more than most people.My bone structure is..Big.Nothing I can do about it.But why can people see past this and love me and like me and not lie?

Sometimes I wish people could step in my shoes and understand what its like to feel one in a million type person.I know I havent been the greatest in many ways but I always treat people good and with respect and try to help when possible.
It also makes me mad how people try and be sly and cover things up.
What ever happened to friendship?Im all for my friends making friends but then they forget about you...Well I decided that Im not going to feel bad and Im not going to be upset.
Fool me once shame on you Fool me twice shame on me.

Current Mood: complacent
Thursday, August 16th, 2007
12:50 pm
I'M Alright..
Well the meet didn't turn out as successful as I planed but 1 of 2 isn't bad.
the crazy part is someone that abandoned the meets in the first place had the nerve to come and tell me his 2 cents about abandoning the meet and trying to change things for the better.Funny how the pot loves to call the kettle black.Besides that I just read about my friends spikes grandad and that made me sad because they are the type of people that lord forbid something happened to them you really miss.Nice simple kind generous people that are a reminder of the true and original American dream.
An America that no one has seen in decades but they had the privilege and honer to live threw and some even serve for.These are the people that I admire and write my songs for..even hope to see at my shows.The era of the true good old american is coming to a close and to the people such as him and many other that have managed to serve all this time I thank you and salute you.Come to think of it reminds me of my parents also...
Spike you are and your family are in my prayers

Current Mood: disappointed
Tuesday, August 14th, 2007
1:49 am
Moving Foward
So..the first few days of charing ahead in life are very difficult..But im moving along.
Ran into a closted friend I hadnt seen in a Looong time..reminded me how somthing things never really change now do they?
The first Tuesday meet ive put together is tomorrow and im really nervous because I dont want it to flop and no one show up :(
Either way Im trying and I hope people do its always fun to chat and get to know new people and have new expriances.All in all life is life and im living it!
Where has life take you?
Saturday, August 11th, 2007
11:45 am
Been a Long time..have I learned anything?
Wow...been so long since I posted here.I looked back and sadly...not much as changed.Im still hurt and angry and it affects everyone I love so dearly....Im really sorry for what Ive been putting everyone threw.I am just really scared..My mom hasnt been in the best of health and she the only family I have.My biggest fear is being alone and its hard to deal with the fact that my number one fan isnt going to always be around for me..My mom is the world to me yet she could be not here at anytime.I love all of you that has been there for me RD,pyruss,elizabeth,Ludwig,Alex C.You guys are some of the best friends anyone can wish for and I thank god for you every day of my life..Its just I have been hurt and burned alot by people in the past.and I try not to carry that with me but im just so scared of being hurt or rejected again and I know you guys wont but Its hard to feel one way on the inside and look another on the outside.

I know Im diffrent but somtimes I just want to fit it and hangout but I dont have much to say because Ive been in the business world so long I've Kinda forgotten to just relax and not read so much into things..im going to really work hard on that and im sure a few other things that I could use to work on.Just dont forget that im trusting you with the one thing that I dont let many get to know or even offer..and thats my heart.Its not a whole lot but thats what i have to give.
Inside Im a nice person and I love everyone yes,even SOME black people lol
and im sorry that you havnt gotten to see me at my best recently but thats about to change.Just please bear with me and give me type to cope with some of the stuff im dealing with and be there for me if you can please and I promise to be there for you also always and as much as I can.

Starting today I hope to be a better person and better friend and I hope that all of you will stick around and find out the real me and what Im really about..I have alot of love and wisdom to share I hope you will take it..?

Millenious Jade

Current Mood: peaceful
Monday, July 3rd, 2006
5:24 pm
ca c'est merd
well just wanted to say goodbye to anyone who actually takes the time to read this..
Im so tired of playing games with people and being blown off its stupid and im worth more than just a min of someones time to tell me their busy.Its matter not now I have given up on the furry community or well furry get together wait that doesnt happen either...hmm i mean furry online place where people are registerd but no one gets together at least not in H suck asss town.I should have left this stupid state/country along time ago silly me for still trying to believe in people..... anyways
Im out no fowarding addess or number is being left and im deleting this and my lonestarfurs user.
for any one who really wants to get in touch there are a few people here and there that have my number you can get it that way if not i prolly didnt want to talk to you anways :)
well see your from the top!!

Jade is OUTT!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off
Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
1:14 am
la vide en une rose
For a lone time I was in search of happiness....I didnt understand why i felt alone confused and dependant on company.
Well thanks to a good friend (ludwig) the grestest friend and person i have encounterd in my life.
I realized that you cannot be happy unless you are happy with yourself.yeah i know DUH!! but really.You have to be completely happy with yourself,what you do and more importantly how your preceve yourself to the world and in that I found my awser.I a long time ago made a sub consciese decision to get into more "normal" intrest for the sake of being more liked and have more common intrests.I loss the core to who I am....well I finally tapped back into it ever since its like it stopped raining in my world.No im not saying that all of a sudden things are perfect But atleast I am on the road to peace.I wanted to thank Luddy for just being imself and helping me led back to who I am and lso spike for giving me a awakining of this.I realised by his recent desicions that you have to do what you have to do to be at peace in thi life.You are only given a limited amount of time and why not make the best of it.Somtimes it leaves other hurt somtimes it doesnt but you ultimatly have to move foward and I am finally after a long time im opening a new chapter.
Again thank you to the 3 people ludwig Alex cherry and spike for giving me a helping hand in the quest for peace.I wish all of you the best in your endevors.
To everyone else I hope that you too will find this road and continue on.


Current Mood: peaceful
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
7:42 pm
wow...there just isnt a word to describe how I feel

Current Mood: none im just here
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
9:28 pm
Gas is CRAZY!! time to get on a bike..anyways Have a safre trip spike take care.
Im here is anyone else here???????

Current Mood: peaceful
Thursday, April 6th, 2006
7:13 pm
Life and love and love and life....well no love just life
I just dont understand how all of you get threw is it because you have some one?
tell me tell me but tell me no lies..

Current Mood: scared
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